It’s been a long while since my last post.
There’s been so much that has happened and new struggles and new skills gained and losses and new strengths found and new illnesses and new point of view.
I want to cover those in upcoming posts but today, I want to start a new mini series.
If I’m being honest this is to help me more than anybody else. Because I need this.
I am at cross roads where I want to focus on important elements in my life but my mind is really overwhelmed that i know it wants to escape and flee the reality.
I have moves coming up, uncertainty of my future, work issues, health issues and moreover family issues and a family member terminally ill.
And with all these, I am struggling with my vices, mostly shopping addiction and binge eating.
I am aware this is first world problem but I also know many people also struggle with this too.
So I am going to try to document my fight with this escapism and fight to face the reality because ultimately it will make everyone happy.
My special weakness is buying fragrances so I will be most mindful of this.
My strategy is ‘it is ok to struggle, it is ok to be tempted’, but also by not giving the choice of buying I can be freed from thinking about it.